hardly blog eyh..

hello old friend, yup it had been quite some time since the last time i tell u stories. it was february right, the last time we met. thats like 5  blogyears. of course i miss uuu.i have tons of stories i want to tell, but not here not now. im just here to say hi, n thats all for now. i'll surely visit u again dear blog of mine, and old friend that  always listen :)

people change..

assalamualaikum.
hi u. i am fine, thanks for wondering, if u did. if u didnt, then its okay.
i learned one fact about human, about people. one fact that is so obvious that i needed years to fully grasp it. PEOPLE CHANGE. the only thing that is constant about human, us, is that we are constantly changing. we grew older each day, we got taller or smaller, thinner or wider, prettier or simply handsomer. guys get mustache, girls get...a guy with mustache(girls used to get boys with pimples). of course we are always changing physically, we're not some freaking sparkling vampire. though some may hear words like "u never change one bit!", but they do. are ways of thinking, our ways of doing, ours ways of making ways. we changed, yes we did. we might not notice it at first, but we will later, perhaps.
so? what if we do change? well, im kinda scared..
what im scared of is if i had changed. had i changed? from better to worse? worse to disaster?
i used like to like different colors. used to like different food. used to like tomyam weeks ago, but not anymore(somtin really bad happened). what we've gone through shape us bit by bit, turning ourselves into somtin new, hopefully somtin good. times usually matures one's mind. somtimes it doesnt.
cut the crap!

im just sad that people changed. some good friends change to strangers. i got a friend who will disapprove any photos that i tag him in. not one photos, we used to do lots of things together, make funny photos together back in college. the girls i used to love..change of heart, that hurts..

God, save me from this danger. dont let me stray away to the wrong path.  

why why ha..

if u're not goin to care
why keep me close to u?
if u're just goin to hurt
why keep me close to u?
if u're just goin to betray
why keep me close to u?
if u're not telling me why
why keep me close to u?

the reason im not moving an inch away from u
is because i wanna be with u..
i want to make u happy
i wanna be there when u need me
i wanna be there when u want me
i wanna be there to share memories
i wanna be there to protect
i wanna be there for u.
there, no secrets.

happy new year..

happy new year to myself n u guys.yes u.
how was your new year? mine was nice, n funny, n new.
well, i didnt go to any fireworks or events, just sitting and chatting with friends while hearing the booms n booms in the sky. we were involved in the orientation so, stuck at campus.haha, still, it was very nice that way. not crowded, u can still see the fireworks, jokes with your friends, and have fun in a mannered way. no regrets.

funny future..

falling in love for the same person again and again....not again..must move on!!!!

wishes..

some are granted. others aren't.
its natural not to have everything u want.
somtimes u just cant afford it. sometimes it is not meant for you.
sometimes it is not meant for u..yet.
dont give up and live day by day to work your dreams n wishes out.
myabe there are things that u cant see yet. things u cant comprehend.
but u must always believe.
believe..

love dilemma..

love dilemma? maybe not miss pouleen. 

let things go slow and smooth for now ok :)

rushing would not solve anything.

i have other things to worry about.

like how im going to pay my university's fees and everything.

if she is meant for me, then she'll be mine some day.

we would grow old n have a big family together. 

think positive, and all the stress in the world is gone.

at the moment, i am..

i am grateful
things seems nice
and i am okay.

i like this one girl
though i dont really know whats going on in her mind
maybe she like me too.. a little..
i just cant figure it out
or just lying to myself
i think it should be ok
its good that we're not dating

im sorry..

its good to listen..

i like listening to mom
when she is not lecturing of course
she has the nicest ways to tell how good a person is
and really funny face expressions when she did any
from time to time
she'll tell her stories when she was young
though most of the times its the same old story
but i'll listen anyway
coz i like to see her happy face
reminiscing her memories
coz she is
the one person i cant bear to watch her crying..

lets just say..

lets just say im happy right now,
so just leave me to my thoughts.
let me fell asleep into the infinite dreams..

i just need a burger to smile..

today, around 6.50pm,
i just ate the most delicious burger ever.
better then the zinger! i repeat! better than the zinger!!
better than gcb or big mac!!
better than any burger king i've consumed!!
and those 'street burgers' wouldnt stand even a chance against this burger
better than krabby patty of course!
yup, u heard me! BETTER THAN KRABBY PATTY!!

the bread was the softest bread ever
and it doesnt breaks to crumbs.
no seasonings!
no over-poured sauce!
just a a piece of sweet salad
and just the right amount of chili sauce
and there it was, sandwiched between the breads and salad
lies the the most easiest-to-eat burger ever
one bite might kill you
the second would would bring you back to life to finish it!!
alhamdulillah.

i hope he'll make burgers like this every now and then
coz
i had not felt such love
such care for a very long time
i know its just a burger
but i can feel it
the love that i crave from a man
i called father..

somtimes things are just unavoidable..

somtimes
u just have to trust

somtimes
u just have to do it

somtimes
there are things that cant be explain

somtimes
u just have admit it

somtimes
shit happens

so
for the rest of the time
do your best in life
it prepares you for the 'shit' times

mulanya xnak kata, tapi..

tapi..
kata je lah kan
watpe la simpan lama-lama
nak wat pekasam??
luahkan je kat blog eko ni
ni la tujuan ko wat blog ni
yeke??

ok!! done with the monologue!(monolog lah sangat)

first thing first
andai kata-kata aku ni terguris hati sesapa yang baca ni
maaf lah ya
aku cuma nak nyatakan hasrat hati yang
yang
yang tak tahan ngan satu fenomena yang tak asing lagi kat malaysia ni
apatah lagi kat facebook
fenomena ni sudah wujud dari zaman myspace lagi
mungkin juga zaman friendster tengah hot dulu( penulis x berapa rajin online friendster dulu)
fenomena apa?
fenomena apa !!???

fenomena " bajetnyeeww"!!!
oh bukan bukan
bukan video yang inianwarhadi / anwar hadi buat tu.(leh klik kat link video tu kalo korang x pernah tengok video yang dimaksudkan tu)
isu yang diketengahkan oleh anwarhadi tu satu hal.
tapi isu yang aku nak ketengahkan ni pun, satu hal gak!

ianya adalah AMIK GAMBAR BAJET CUN, PASTU TULIS CAPTION "HUDUHNYEWWW"
memang la tersangat crave attention
pastu bila ada orang komen
" comeynya/cantik/lawa/cun/kiut " dan segala jenis pujian yang sewaktu dengannya
di'reply' plak ngan jawapan yang tersaaangaattt modest " Mana ada, hodoh laa."
modest gila kan.tuihhh.
korang tu dah dikurniakan rupa paras yang menawan(bagi yang menawan la)
jaga la
ni duk tayang kat facebook
duk tambah dosa orang ramai
duk tambah dosa sendiri
setakat rupa paras cantik
leh simpan wat pekasam je la korang punya 'cantik' tu
belungguk lagi pompuan cantik kat dunia
tapi nak cari pompuan cantik akhlak
payah teramat
biasalah
benda baik memang payah jumpa
ada harga yang tinggi bagi setiap yang istimewa
kalau setakat yang duk amik gambaq bajet ni
kat supermaket tu bersepah
xyah la nak jual muka sangat kat fb tu
nanti kalau orang x senonoh berkenan,
mau ditangkap dirogolnya
xpun disihirnya nanti
mintak jauhla sume benda tu
benda yang cantik haruslah dijaga rapi
barang kemas cantik2 pun diorang letak cermin 2 inci tebal + pagar besi
so orang xleh curi
x salah la kan korang nak letak gambar cane pun kat fb tu
(gambar yang senonoh n ttup aurat la)
aku bukan kesah sangat
tapi fikirla dosa dan keburukkan yang boleh korang dapat
aku x rugi ape2
korang la kan
aku pun manusia
ada gak salah silapnya
so
sama sama la tegur
xde la kan
dah tau korang tu cantik
xyah la duk wat keje camtu
nak orang komen
"u cantik la, betul." - aku pun leh tolong komen
6 puluh 5 ribu juta kali pun x kesah
tapi,
apa la point yang korang dapat?
bukan kaya pun ngan komen tu,
bukan dapat pahala pun,
bukan elak penyakit pun,
takut hati ni jadi riak.
aku tulis ni sebenarnya sebab concern ( dan meluat gak ar)
lilek suda, its a fact yang korang cun, no need confirmation from everybody else..

happy when you are..

im happy
when i see you are happy
even though you're not with me
where you are there
and i am here
so far no where near

when i see your eyes
its not hard to decipher
but it gets harder
when the matter of heart get closer
with that frown on your face
i am frowning myself
should i throw a joke
or a handkerchief instead
whatever will it be
i am here
you see

though there were tears and cries
laughs and smiles
and me in every each of them
everything will be forgotten
for memory doesnt last
if it never reaches the heart

but i am still happy
to see u happy
even when u see me
im just a forgotten memory..

steve jobs-the apple man.

steve jobs (1955-2011??)

he is the CEO of the famous brand APPLE - the IPHONES!!

i was not informed of his death(none really bother to tell me)

usai kerja, aku pulang ke rumah dan menemui komputer ribaku

lalu melayari dunia tanpa sempadan untuk berita dan hiburan

di laman sosial

ku lihat seorang lagi kenalan yang bakal berkahwin

seorang lagi sudah menyambung pelajran di luar negeri

yang lain

sudah banyak memuat naik gambar-gambar dengan 'pose' bajet kiut.ehehe

aku teruskan ke blog

tidak terfikir pun untuk menaip apa-apa post sehingga la aku aku klik pada satu 'link' ini

Steve Jobs Passed Away

pantas aku menaip kata kunci itu di google

dan hampir 90% beritanya berbunyi

" APPLE SAYS JOBS IS DEAD "

timbul la kan kehairanan, kenapa "apple says?"

kenapa tidak ada pengesahan doktor atau keluarga?

timbul satu kemusykilan di hati ini.

IPHONE 4S baru sahaja dilancarkan sekiranya aku tidak silap

adakah ini tujuan publisiti untuk menigkatkan jualan iphone??

mungkin sahaja aku fikir terlalu banyak 

terlalu komikal

mungkin kebelakangan ini terlalu banyak input media 

yang mempengaruhi mindaku ini yang

setiap kematian, kemalangan atau apa saja kejadian telah dirancang

dengan sebaik mungkin oleh dalang-dalang yang hanya mau kan kuasa, harta atau pun dendam.

apa pun, ini semua hanyalah taakulanku tanpa sebarang kajian terperinci.

mungkin Apple adalah keluarga steve, dia yang memulakan apple bukan?

apa salahnya mereka yang mengumukan/mengesahkan kematiannya.

its a thing..

Girls,
if a guy ask you out,
there should be 2 answers to it.

1) Give him a chance.
Its clear that he likes you. So, why not give him a chance, go out with him. Who knows, u might like him too.
It takes a whole lot of courage to ask a girl out, if one step forward to do so, i believe he'll be nice to you. " It doesnt hurt to try." But, in this case, it hurts to try every single time. So, if he's willing to risk his heart for you, why not you? Why is it the man always have to work harder? If you want it to work it out, we should work together. Humans are the best being on earth, but mistakes arent avoidable. Thats why we help each other.
(if he has a bad reputation, maybe u could delay the date's date, do some background and history check first. You dont want to be his 15th girlfriend this year, and its only june. So turn him down(which is answer #2) )

2) Gently turn him down.
Maybe you likes somebody else, so turn him down nicely. Dont flirt/joke by any means. Guys might get the wrong signal. If you dont want him, make it clear but cool. Awful rejections may make the guy pissed off and soon take revenge( immature guys do this, and so does matured guys who is really pissed off). If you reject him nicely, he'll accept it and hopefully move on. Maybe he wouldnt move on that quickly, a couple more tries perhaps. Just make sure you dont give him hopes if you really dont wanna be with him.

3) there's a third answer???
Avoid coupling. Build your love after you are married. (Bercintalah selepas kahwin)
i hope i will too one day :) A relationship before marriage lures too many sins.

no you dont!!

people tend to think they know me,
thats probably half true.
maybe they knew one side of me,
maybe they knew my habits that i didnt care much about to notice.
LET ME TELL YOU THIS!!!
they knew so little about me.
they dont even have a clue of whats going in my mind.
i hardly denies what u said to me, coz its a pointless argument to win.why start one?
i let u believe the facts that u made up on your own.

so please,
dont act like u know me that much.
it looks stupid.

..

i just wanna fell in love..

hopeless reality..

life is ...
life is a lot of things
its great
its bad
its good
its sad
its confusing
its a blessing
its chaotic
its mathematics
its life
it has its curves and hills
its dark and its light
its beautiful
its hateful

its everything u can imagine
its nothing like u imagined
its colourful

guitarku enggan mau dipulangkan..

bengong!!

Dah lama kot aku bagi pinjam
ini nak mintak balik
xnak kasi plak
nak practice lagi
sem lepas ko dah practice
udah2 le
practice je la dengan ape yg ko ada
aku pun nak practice gak
pnat2 kumpul duit baru dapat gitar tu
senang2 je ko pinjam xnak kasi balik
wat ayat pasrah pe tah
memang la aku x kata ape2 dpan ko
karang kecik hati plak
adusss
tapi over la plak kan ko ni.
akhir kata
bengong punya budak
orang dah wat baik ngan ko
ko lebih lebih kan
angkat geng pukul baru tau
eiihhh
bikin panasss jeee