i wish u dont read this..

i wish u dont read this

and go commenting at facebook..

i couldnt stand it anymore

every time i look at the road

i feel a rush

i look at the door knob

the rush get faster

i wish i jumped out of the car

and end this 'car lecture'

i was furious

and still is

but i stayed silent

non-spoken

coz my words could be violent

at one point

i wish i die

so

i wont be a burden anymore

since thats the only thing i am

lies and lies

i cant take it no more

this mental torture

this heart breaking

this 'i wanna die feeling'

it never was a choice

to begin with

it never was

maybe coz

i never did

never rebel

never say no..or i did

but not hard enough

not strong enough

but it never was

a game i could conquer

a match i could win

an opponent i could tackle

i carry no future

i am selfish

i am a burden

not worth sacrificing for

a weakling

dont thinks ahead

brat that forget things

troublemaker

..

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a suicide note?..probably... . .