cheering..

when everybody is cheering n supporting
the world seems to be less cruel..
doesnt it?

tengah malam..

si cengkerik tidak lagi berbunyi
dingin yang selesa
kipas tua berpusing lemah
sekarang sudah pukul tengah malam..

smile :)

budak ini masih belum tidur

sesekali memandang telefon yg membisu kaku

menanti jawaban 

menanti khabaran

menanti dengan harapan

dan masih menanti

pada pukul tengah malam

budak ini

menanti setia

setiap tengah malam

budak ini mengucapkan

" Selamat malam "

pada tengah malam..budak ini mahu bermimpi

bermimpi berhenti menanti

kerana walaupun untuk satu malam

ia pasti membuatkan dia tersenyum sendiri

dan menanti lagi esok hari

di tengah malam..

drama..

drama drama drama
oh such drama
when i watched one
i thought
"this could never happen in real life."
" its too stupid or too evil "
" Such coincidence never happens in real life"
right?

but as we age
as we develop this brain of ours
we learn and understand
that such kind of tragedy happens
such evil person lives
such DRAMA..exists
trap in our little comfort zone
our rich carefree life
we ignored the DRAMA of the WORLD
its not fiction
there are! wars going on
terrifying accidents, happening
terrible disasters, hitting
horrifying serial killers, hunting
they are real..

recently
i had chatted a few people
random people online
around the world
i never met them
i never knew them
and it all started with a simple 'hi'

we talked about the eclipse
we talked about interests
n dinosaurs
i made friends with them
n even added some on facebook

some of em are quite awesome
unique in their own ways
some were not happy for their differences
coz they had a tough life
each day is full of obstacles
n they face it again n again with a lot of patience
as if their stories
were dramas..
but they are real
what you watched on tv
u would probably made of somtin real
somtin was seen by writer
or even felt by writer
not that u should believe everytin seen on tv
just remember
there are a lot of more unfortunate people out there
not giving up
striving with every bit of their strength
cracking every bones in their flesh
to live a life
why arent we?

if u r cindy..

sorrryyy

accidentally close the window

if u r cindy

leave a comment n ur facebook link will yaa

wahahaha( tips nak mohon sambung belajar ) ..

nak post jugak!!
x kira!!!
wahahaha

ok
mari tengok apa isu kali ini

ohh
nampaknya spm dah hampir habis
dan juga telah habis (bagi sesetengah pelajar yang x amik kejuteraan)
korang sume dah isi upu belum?
belum lagi!
APA!
lilek
stay cool
control jiwa
pastinya korang konfius lagi mangkuk  kekeliruan nak pilih ape
bagi yang dah pilih
bagus
tp betulkah pilihan anda
yakin
korang sure ke....
susah dol subjek-subjek dia
x suka plak nnt
hehe
saja ja
nk  psiko korang sket
tips nak mohon sambung belajar
tips nak pilih adalah
pilih ape yang diberi dalam pilihan je
jgn plak pilih yang x berkenaan
skiranya
korang nk jd doktor
tp tertekan butang lanskap/senibina
knapa tuh?
mungkin karena
hati korang bergolak
menjadi doktor bukan pilihan korang
tapi bisikan-bisikan parents korang
hahaha
cool ok
agak2 korang x minat
slow talk
kalo parents jenis one-sided punya (xleh slow-talk)
kumpulkan ally korang
boleh jadi mak korang(ally yg bagus)
abang atau akak korang
sebolehnya
cari ally yg parents korang baik hubungan diplomatiknya
kalo siblings korang
cari yang anak emas ke..hehe
atau pakcik korang yang gaji agak2 rm1000/sehari
untuk support statement korang
proposal yang bagus
disertai pembentangan yang hebat
dan juga bukti-bukti kukuh
xkan mudah ditolak
ok
sume ni macam nk war ngan parents je kan
haha
NO!
we follow are hearts
ok
tp
hati ini slalu pula digoda bisikan syaitan
jadi
sentiasalah merujuk
pada Penciptamu yg Esa
bagi pertolongan
dan petunjuk
ok
ok

doktor n senibina tu contoh je ok
both career pon ok
i dont really care about the pay
as long as its your dream
bagus jadi doktor
aku salute korang
bantu orang n slamatkan nyawa
aku?
tngok luka pun pengsan

sebolehnya
korang kenali awal-awal
minat korang
career yg nk pilih
dapatkan pendapat sebanyak yang boleh
a wise king always listen to his councils
but follow his heart!
abis spm nih
korang ada at least
2 month of holidays kan
upu jgn lupa isi
masa cuti nilah
korang nk explore
tendency korang
or bakat korang ke arah mana
fotografi?
filmografi?
malaysia ni x cukup filem-filem yang meletup!
maksud aku meletup nih bukanlah yang penuh aksi
tp penuh makna
makan jiwa punya
asik
rempit
drift
gangste
cintan-cintun
hantu satu lagi
komedi ok laa
cam papadom tu
aku kasi 4.3 bintang out of 5
anyway
pilihan korang k
ada bnyk lagi pekerjaan kat dunia ni
kalo korang slalu tngok kat yahoo punya news
ada gunanya
di samping global news yg berguna untuk interview
tp jugak bnyk new macam
" how to improve your resume"
"best job"
"best pay for simple job"
-tngok jugakla gaji dia, as a source of motivation-
" most market job in the near future"
somtin like that

to my students
i hope u all akan sukses ok
in no matter path you choose
i always right behind you
supporting
chaiyouk chaiyouk
janji halal
banyak lagi mende yang nak tulis
tp nnt panjang2 korang malas baca plak
hehe

apa2 soalan
atau ingin tanya pendapat
atau strategi hidup
leh komen
kalo xnak nama disiarkan pun boleh
ada kawan yang masalah yang serupa
leh tolong nasihat dia
hehe
till next time
salam..

mencurah..

salam
bismillah

kali ini
bahasa ibunda
rasa seperti lama sudah tidak berbicara
berbicara bahasa ibunda
lamakah?

idea mencurah
hati teringin
tajuk berlegar-legar di minda
isi berselerak di merata-rata
tapi
aku menguap
mata mengecil
nafas perlahan
sejuk malam yang selesa
mengantukkah?

terjaga..
mata terlelap seketika
dan hampir terlelap lagi
aku ingin pergi beradu
di ceruk sana
menyelimut diri
ingin dibuai mimpi

huaaaahhh
menguap
selawat jangan lupa

esok
aku perlu keluar pagi
hantar itu ini
juga ada ceramah
untuk lesen..
oh
sudah mendaftar
ceramahnya esok..
slm semua
selamat malam..
alhmadulillah..

i wanted to be..

when i was younger
a lot younger
youngerer
i wanted to be..

a postman
it sounded
heroic
powerful
and recognized by all..
i never knew what it really was
till moments later
silly me..giggles

when i grew a bit
a tiny tinee bit
i wanted to be..
a scientist
i really love watching national geographic
it airs at night
on tv3
it was very fascinating
from there
i learn a lot of things
including english
but i was stress
i tought
" how come these kinda things never came out in exams "
i knew a lot of things
n yet
all of it seems wasteful

between those 2 timeline
i enjoy drawing
i spent the days drawing
all alone in the house
just me
i'll ran off to bathe when mom gets home
n off to school
i cant remember what i did at night
i was really diligent
so i always finish my homeworks at school
n so
i never had homeworks till standard five
still
i cant remember doing any
except for the essay i was scolded to do
around standards 6
i only hear
" become an engineer, become an engineer "

i wanted to be a masked hero
i always daydream of being one
n of coz
they are dreams only

middle school
i felt left out
not having true frens at school
but it wasnt quite a problem
i always hang out cycling with my frens
from the village
we'll go jogging in the weekends
n cycling every evening
later
i think i found some frens..
still
it wasnt a problem
i have a family
n we r quite close
my cousins r close with me
we have gatherings
once every month
more or less
at this time
i wanted to be
a writer
i've been reading quite a lot
english n malay literature
are somtin
if u learn closely
but i never had the push

then
i wanted to be a mangaka
my friend was improving his drawing skills
after seeing mine
i cant draw
but just for fun
watching him so determine
i was attracted too
but not for long

i fell in love with movies
good movies
so
u guess
yeah
i wanted to be NO!
not an actor
i wanted to be
a director
i wanted to make movies
that will change one's life
one's perspective
one's heart
a movie that'll change the world..

but it was a dream
far beyond reach
n so
i wanted to be somtin simpler
a photographer
having the chance to hold a digicam for the first time
i was excited
i love taking photos
still am
but with a slower passion
still passionate
but more relax

then spm
i wanted to be . . . . . . . . . .
i was blank

i fill up a few forms
first
i got the mercedez offer
to be a trainee mechanic
somtin like that
then a diploma program in mechatronic offer
i was immediately told to forget about the mercedez offer
when the the last offer came
the diploma program in mechanical engineering
i was again
told to forget
the previous offer
i was upset
still
i went on with the last offer..

years later
im still alive
attending a different course
at a different place
with the same old me
i wanted to be known
to the world
i wanted to be famous but not rich
i wanted to be happy but not wealthy
for i am tired of hearing
" Blaja ini, senang naik pangkatgaji banyak!"
" blaja ni,snang nk cari kerja!"
" Subjek ni bukan susah pun, my fren said so."
" U dont like it? its not about choosing anymore."
" minat ini semua go to hell lah." I cried...
its always about the pays
bout the status
bout the grades
the promotions
...im sick of it..

i wanted to be..

missing-

award..

oh tankque

oh tankque

1) im not sure

but i think no.1 is about the blogger who award u the award

so

here goes..

oh tankque sarah

yor blog is interesting

though somtimes it can be so long

but

others r just fine 

i can still remember the first post i read on yor blog

keep on bloggin gal! n gud luck on yor novel!

2)Nama blog anda dan kenapa anda letak nama itu
its a codename that has not yet revealed to most people.

D5T7 stays a mystery..wahahaha..to most people that is

3)URL blog anda dan daripada mana datangnya idea itu
mostly made of my name...
4)Apakah kaedah dalam penulisan anda
Saya tulis apa saya rasa

berbanding dahulu dan skarang

mmg berbeza

rasanya dahulu lebih berimaginasi

berimaginasi indah 

sekarang

macam nak tumbuk jer..hadoi

5)Apa perasaan anda bila tengok blog orang lain cantik dan menarik sedangkan blog anda tidak 
X menarik kah? camne leh dapat award ni ha?

heheh,

x adalah..

memang ada kejelesan di situ

tapi

saya sukakan sesuatu yang mudah

isinya yang penting

x begitu? 

6)Bilakah blog anda diwujudkan
err,bila ya?

rasanya pada ujung 2008..agaknya..nnt saya check balik..

haaa! november 2008..

7) Siapakah orang pertama tahu dan menjadi follower blog anda?

xtahu plak saya

karena

ketika itu

saya tidak kesahkan follower

mula berblog

addicted gitu..hahaha..

8) Sila tag 5 orang lain
(ramai yang ingin d-tag, in no order whatsoever)a) sarah -interestingly intresting, though somtimes, very looong,hahahab) superb photographer -really nice pics,truly
c) the budu teller -hmmm, give it a try
d) coolpics guy -his name says it all
e) yan -enjoy reading 
f) syara  -(reminds me of the Creator)
g) sususejat -my tummy's fren
h) artisticly cute -take a peek

i) bun

j) kimi ( sorry, cant link u guys, techno prob)

i know i know,

5 only..but they are interesting blogs..

i still wanna name a few more..

but im really really sleepy..

so gudnite

n tankiu again for the award

its the third one in a week..

:)    :b

slm